Day 17

Hi Lovey.  It's been a rough day.  Can't quite seem to keep it together.   Lots of time on my own in our house.  Times like this, I hope you aren't around seeing how I am.  I want to make you proud.  I don't want to cause you pain by seeing my pain.  I have lived through many things as you know my love, but this is by far my biggest challenge to date.

I have no more words, just blinding pain.  The world melts away and I'm left unfocused and alone. 

I am not ready to let go of you love.  I don't know how to do that.  

Help me get some sleep baby.  Keep the dreams and nightmares at bay so I can rest.

I love you now as I have from the first day I met you.

xoxo

~A